the water’s right there

location: reservoir edge, parked with a water view and no real excuse
conditions: still. warm. strangers present but minding their business.

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bought onx backcountry.
not for the trails (though it does those), but for property lines. water access. land boundaries.
also: to track paddles. to feel like i’m collecting something useful — or at least map-shaped.

everything’s ready:

• board, inflated
• gear, packed
• water, calm
• day, open

still haven’t gone.

not scared. just stalled. that familiar static of having to walk past a few people, alone.
then to be out there, still alone. even if i like it.

if there were a dock, i’d already be gone.
if someone said let’s go, i would’ve.

instead, i stayed put.
wrote this instead.
maybe tomorrow.